Here are more pictures after the cut.
Lady Gaga Brings Crazy To Shows.
Wednesday, October 30, 2013
Here are more pictures after the cut.
My Thoughts Are Almost Ruining My Life
Tuesday, October 29, 2013
These days, i have been getting really close to God for reasons i can't seem to tell or maybe because life is just empty and can be sniffed off you in a split seconds.
I'm into the media business and mostly sad news come to my hearing almost all the time and i swear down; it can be pretty much depressing for me and to add salt to injury, i am expected to not let it show on the airwaves so i don't dampen the spirits of those trying to get their heads above the waters, themselves..!
And the people, i really confide in are Jojo (MORE OFTEN...she must be tired of my same old sad stories by now), i guess..lol. Sometimes faith, or that mad girl called "willy-willy of wazobia fm" hehhehehhe... ooops i hope they dont come on my page to read this ... but at the end of the day, i get consoled by what each and everyone has got to tell me. I mean, it goes a jolly mighty long way to stop my very wild imaginative mind from creating more disaster.
Yes, i have a problem with controlling what thoughts come to me and i could so dwell on them(mostly the negative ones) to the point that i begin to see them unfold before the nudity of my eyes and then i would need someone to talk me out of them again or i occasionally run to the "ROCK that's higher than I, JESUS" for help.
As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he!
Your thoughts are same as the words you produce. so even when you dont even say them out, just by mere thinking those thoughts; you have automatically said them in the spirit and they become registered in the realms of the spirit, get processed into reality.
There are two things i am currently struggling to work on; MY THOUGHTS AND MY WORDS.
Life and death is in the power of the tongue and those who love it will eat its fruit.
Peeps, what i am trying to get at is; that which comes out of the mouth, defiles a man. Not what goes in (as in eating food). So if your life seem to be in a circle, hey, wait, stop and crosscheck your thoughts and your words. What you say about your life is what you at the moment see and get. It's a driven-home FACT!!!
Haven't you observed that what you tend to be scared of; is what invariably happens to you????
If you are jobless, you are the cause of your state of joblessness. Infact, you created the job of being JOBLESS because all you think about is how it is so difficult to get a job and how much of a MAN-KNOW-MAN country we have turned into.
If you are constantly broke, check it, its because you have been scared of the huge responsibilities you are expected to take care of.
If you are scared of getting old because you ain't married yet, you probably are going to have a delayed marriage because you are scared that you are getting older by the day and you drive the potential partners away from you because all they see is wrinkles appearing on a "sad-old-desperate-Ooh God-where is my man"- kind of woman in front of them.
so why not think in the reverse order that's apparently positive???
And make things happen for you by re-arranging your world again by the efficacy of your THOUGHTS.
I am not any different from you.... !
Bottomline is:
Be careful before you speak because once words leave your mouth they will never return and you never know what effect they may have.
phewwwwwwwwwwwwwww, i could be worse than you but i am learning and i want both of us to learn together and deal with battles going on in our minds and Our incomplete sentences are enough to express the true mirror of our heart & mind because The words we use represent the talking expressions of our inside world..
Meeeeeeeoooow......!
THINK RIGHT, THINK YOU _ Juicy Jayne.
WATCH OUT FOR TESTIMONY III
GOOD MORNING, LOVERS!
I'm into the media business and mostly sad news come to my hearing almost all the time and i swear down; it can be pretty much depressing for me and to add salt to injury, i am expected to not let it show on the airwaves so i don't dampen the spirits of those trying to get their heads above the waters, themselves..!
And the people, i really confide in are Jojo (MORE OFTEN...she must be tired of my same old sad stories by now), i guess..lol. Sometimes faith, or that mad girl called "willy-willy of wazobia fm" hehhehehhe... ooops i hope they dont come on my page to read this ... but at the end of the day, i get consoled by what each and everyone has got to tell me. I mean, it goes a jolly mighty long way to stop my very wild imaginative mind from creating more disaster.
Yes, i have a problem with controlling what thoughts come to me and i could so dwell on them(mostly the negative ones) to the point that i begin to see them unfold before the nudity of my eyes and then i would need someone to talk me out of them again or i occasionally run to the "ROCK that's higher than I, JESUS" for help.
As a man thinketh in his heart, so is he!
Your thoughts are same as the words you produce. so even when you dont even say them out, just by mere thinking those thoughts; you have automatically said them in the spirit and they become registered in the realms of the spirit, get processed into reality.
There are two things i am currently struggling to work on; MY THOUGHTS AND MY WORDS.
Life and death is in the power of the tongue and those who love it will eat its fruit.
Peeps, what i am trying to get at is; that which comes out of the mouth, defiles a man. Not what goes in (as in eating food). So if your life seem to be in a circle, hey, wait, stop and crosscheck your thoughts and your words. What you say about your life is what you at the moment see and get. It's a driven-home FACT!!!
Haven't you observed that what you tend to be scared of; is what invariably happens to you????
If you are jobless, you are the cause of your state of joblessness. Infact, you created the job of being JOBLESS because all you think about is how it is so difficult to get a job and how much of a MAN-KNOW-MAN country we have turned into.
If you are constantly broke, check it, its because you have been scared of the huge responsibilities you are expected to take care of.
If you are scared of getting old because you ain't married yet, you probably are going to have a delayed marriage because you are scared that you are getting older by the day and you drive the potential partners away from you because all they see is wrinkles appearing on a "sad-old-desperate-Ooh God-where is my man"- kind of woman in front of them.
so why not think in the reverse order that's apparently positive???
And make things happen for you by re-arranging your world again by the efficacy of your THOUGHTS.
I am not any different from you.... !
Bottomline is:
Be careful before you speak because once words leave your mouth they will never return and you never know what effect they may have.
phewwwwwwwwwwwwwww, i could be worse than you but i am learning and i want both of us to learn together and deal with battles going on in our minds and Our incomplete sentences are enough to express the true mirror of our heart & mind because The words we use represent the talking expressions of our inside world..
Meeeeeeeoooow......!
THINK RIGHT, THINK YOU _ Juicy Jayne.
WATCH OUT FOR TESTIMONY III
GOOD MORNING, LOVERS!
Lady Gaga Is Finally Running Mad.
Saturday, October 26, 2013
Lady Gaga is finally going crazy.... The superstar singer wore this spooky see-through creation as she landed in London yesterday for her performance in X-Factor UK. More bizarre is that she walked barefoot (legs painted white), with her arms raised and she had this disturbing stare...as she walked to her hotel and greeted fans. More pics after the cut...
Jeta & Mbong Amata Split after almost 10years Of Marriage.
Monday, October 21, 2013
I see no reason why a girl who was married off at an early age of say 18 0r 20years and has lived with her husband for 10years would say she wants freedom because she barely had time to date, enjoy the beauty of life or that her youth was stolen by her husband and she is not given space to do her thing.... that's simply balderdash.!!!!
Where did we get all this kind of mentality from??
Weren't our mothers married off early enough??
Even when their husbands were busy being an ass, they still persevered and stuck on.
It was a thing of "for better for worse" but now what we see is impatient little girls and boys in an adult body...!
Enough said, ofcourse news making round says that Jeta Amata and wife have split after 10years of marriage. smh... you can find info HERE
BBA Winner Dillish and Her Bestfriend Maria hosted by Gov Adams Oshiomhole in Benin
Saturday, October 19, 2013
BBA contestants Elikem and Selly are also in town. Dillish and Maria are currently in Abuja for another Selly's birthday party which will hold today October 19th at Sofa Lounge.
Smallville star Tom Welling and wife Jamie to divorce after more than 10 years of marriage
Jamie White Welling - a model - filed legal documents on Wednesday, according to TMZ, citing 'irreconcilable differences' as the reason behind the split.
She is requesting spousal support.
The documents state that the couple have been separated since December last year. It's amazing how couples are fast getting out of marriages. God help us...
Chris Brown And Tran Karrueche, Still Going On Strong.
hmmm Chris Brown and Karrueche Tran seem to be having much fun. They have apparently been going on strong ever since chris's split with Riri baby, in May this year.
well, She holds him down and is always there no matter what': Tran is said to be currently living at Breezy's Hollywood Hills home..
#more pictures
Chris Brown was found taking a wild ride on Universal Studios' Revenge of the Mummy ride with girlfriend Karrueche Tran Thursday night.
The 25-year-old model clenched on to the 24-year-old singer's hand as they both screamed during their final descent on the spooky roller-coaster.
#more pictures
Chika Ezekwe, Popularly knowns as SUPER C, On Cool Fm Abuja Weds Today
Saturday, September 28, 2013
The crazy versatile on air personality on cool fm Abuja, host of the Good morning Nigeria show just got tied the knot with her booski, today and it was a fun ceremony that took place in Abuja. more pix will be uploaded soon.
Ladies, You Can Now Buy Fake Hymen OOOOH, lol!!!
Friday, September 20, 2013
WE HEAR THERE ARE FAKE HYMENS ON SALE IN ABUJA, IS THERE ANY JUSTIFICATION FOR THIS?
WHAT WOULD MAKE YOU BUY THIS AS A GIRL? WHAT'S WITH THE MEGA DRAMA? IS VIRGINITY STILL THAT MUCH OF A BIG DEAL? GUYS, WOULD YOU WANT TO DATE OR MARRY A VIRGIN?
ESE WALTER'S CONFESSION: MY AFFAIR WITH PASTOR BIODUN FATOYINBO OF COZA.
Friday, August 23, 2013
WARNING!
This article contains stories that most ‘church people’ don’t want to address. So, if you are one of those living in denial and covering up crap going on in the church, this is where you should stop reading. Thanks for stopping by.
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Now, for the rest of us, please sit down and switch on your open mind. I want to talk about something I have kept bottled up inside for longer than necessary. I have also decided to use real names, as my defense for any accusation of slander is justification. I tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but. However, feel free to throw your doubt around but know that I am past the shaming game (where victims of abuse are shot down by blame) I am no longer a victim but a survivor who is sharing her experience to help others caught in same web of abuse, guilt and shame. We only get to live once right? So here, it goes…
I recently came to know this event too was abuse (recently here means about 6 months ago). It has literally been eating me up having to drive by another billboard advertising preachers, or hearing his name, or even trying to ask about the validity of the entire salvation story and whether or not there is a God that truly watches over his people. That being said, I’m just going to say it as it is. This is a recap of my affair with Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo of COZA (Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly) Abuja chapter. This affair I have come to know as a form of abuse as you would see the different elements of abuse very present.
I met Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo many years ago. I was getting bored of the church I was attending and someone suggested COZA. At the time, I had never heard about it. My friend said, go there, I’m sure you would enjoy the word. But he also gave me a strong warning. He said he would advice that I remain a member only and not join the workforce. I agreed. The first time I attended COZA, I felt it was my church and decided I was going to plant my ass there. About eleven months had gone by and I was still attending the services quietly and faithfully. I really did like the church. One day a worker in the church approached me that the senior pastor wanted to see me.
Me? I thought. Why would the senior pastor want to see me? Not the second man but the head nigga in charge? Ok na! I started to think my sin was oozing so bad the pastor could tell I needed Jesus. (Poor old me.) I saw him at the end of the second service (they had two services at the time) and he said to me that he would like me to work with him. I knew I had no intentions of becoming a pastor so I had to ask in what capacity. He said he’d like for me to join a department, preferably the Pastoral Care Unit (PCU).
A few weeks later, against my friend’s advice not to join the workforce, I was a PCU member. All of a sudden, I had some status in church. I was ‘somebody.’ Dress had to be on point, hair, shoes and what not… As workers, we were literally trying to outshine each other or so it seemed. Anyways, I felt like I was a privileged member of an elite circle. Hehehe. (It did feel good though, for the most part.)
About a year after joining the workforce, I was on my way to London for a Masters degree program that would last two years. As was the rule for workers travelling, I wrote to say I would be away for 2 years and Pastor Biodun Fotoyinbo asked that I keep in touch by sending him my number and email when I had settled in London so he “makes sure I continue in the faith” because according to him, people loose their faith when they leave home and he wanted to make sure I didn’t. So, on that note, as soon as I got a phone line in London, I was sure to call ‘my pastor’ to say I arrived safe, had settled in and also gave my phone number.
We had spoken a few times especially when COZA started to stream online. I always watched and would give feedback on quality of production and share a little bit on the challenges I faced settling in a new land. One evening, Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo called me that he was coming to London and needed me to help him make some hotel bookings as the person who was meant to do it couldn’t get it done (this was rather strange as I had never been involved in his travel itinerary) Later that day, he said it had been sorted and my help would not be required but that he would like me to arrange a cab to pick him up from Heathrow. I was happy to help my pastor from Nigeria and even saw it as a privilege. (I would later come to learn that all of this was a calculated attempt to hatch a plan that I suspect was set in motion when I was asked to join the workforce.)
The cab guy was there to get him the next day and when he arrived, he called to ask why I didn’t accompany the cab to pick him up (again, this was strange but I stopped my mind from overanalyzing the situation as I knew I had no business with his visit to London) About two hours later, he called me and said he would like to see me. When I arrived his hotel, I called from the reception but he asked that I come upstairs. I got to the room and tried to stop my mind from thinking why I was going to his room. As he opened the door and invited me in, I had to speak to my heart to stop its palpitations. My better judgment asked me not to go into the room but the kind of reverence I had for Pasotr Biodun Fatoyinbo bordered on fear and I steeped into that room.
“Care for a drink?” Asked Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo.
“No sir,” I said.
“You don’t have to be shy Ese, even if it’s alcohol, feel free and order what you want.” I wasn’t sure I heard my pastor asking me to order alcohol. I imagined it was a test and ignored the voice inside that was saying, “I’d have henny and coke please.” He proceeded to ask how I had been coping in London and if I was a committed member of any church. He also said he thought there was something special about me and wanted to know that I had not strayed from my faith. I really thought he had heard I was doing something I shouldn’t while in London but tried my best to focus on the conversation instead of my straying thoughts. He kept telling me to relax and feel comfortable with talking to him. After a few minutes, he asked that we go to the roof of the hotel as his room was a pent suite and had a connecting door to the roof.
While there, he sat on a reclining chair and asked me to come sit on his laps. This was a bit awkward for me and I froze for a moment as I asked why. He said he had told me to feel free with him and loosen up. I found myself strolling to sit on his laps. At that moment, I felt like a little girl who was experiencing something her mind couldn’t fathom. He asked me to kiss him and all I could think about was seeing him preach on the pulpit back in COZA Abuja, Nigeria, which was my home church. He again said ‘feel free Ese.’ And asked again, that I kiss him.
A few hours later, let’s just say, we were rolling under the sheets. It felt as though my mind had paused. I am not saying I was jazzed, (although it’s possible I was in some trancelike state and didn’t know it but I just was so afraid that I couldn’t say or think otherwise.) That was the beginning of this affair. A sexual affair that went on for a little over a week, DAILY!
I can hear somebody’s mind thinking, ‘well, you weren’t raped.” And I remember a pastor I opened up to when I couldn’t take all the mind games asking if I seduced him. No, I didn’t seduce him and no, I wasn’t raped but I felt trapped in this affair. Come to think of it, how could I have seduced him when I wanted nothing from him? I mean, I was too busy minding my business in London trying to get through with my masters program and I was overly comfortable. And even if I wanted to seduce anyone, it wouldn’t be a married man, not to mention a married pastor.
What I couldn’t reconcile the whole time, was how the same person who preached against the very things we were doing (i.e drinking in pubs, fornicating, committing adultery) was the same person endorsing and encouraging it.
At some point, I got really confused about what Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I were doing that I had to ask how he handles it. I will never forget what he said to me. He said and I quote, “I will teach you a level of grace that you don’t understand.” My mind couldn’t fathom that somehow grace was enough covering for not just fornication on my path, adultery on his path and the many lies that was bound to follow what we were doing that was clearly abominable. I somehow dealt with the thoughts and fears that followed on my path. He had said to me that he wanted me to be his girlfriend and he would take me around the world and spoil me with money and things. Somehow, money had never been one of the things that motivated me (I am from a home where all my needs have been adequately met) In all my ‘badness’ through finding myself, I never did things I did for money but more of rebellion against rules and authority.
Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo also said to me that he had a dream where I exposed what was happening to the media. Said it was all over the place and that people were calling me the girl that caused chaos in COZA. He also said I should remember the bible said to “touch not God’s anointed.” I immediately started to rebuke the devil and said I could never do anything like that. I was almost swearing with my entire family as I thought really I had touched God’s anointed by submitting my body to be used. Little did I know at the time that all of these were ways to mess with my mind and even manipulate my thoughts.
Fast-forward a few months later, I was back in Nigeria and my church had become uncomfortable. Anytime I sat in church and listened to Pastor Biodun preach, I felt shame. I finally sent him a message saying I wasn’t comfortable anymore. I was confused and needed to talk about what had happened. He said I should meet him to talk and I did. It was a really weird meeting for me especially when he tried to kiss me at our meeting. I finally realized at this point that he couldn’t help me. I thought God was angry with me and I couldn’t pray so I decided to withdraw completely from COZA. This was the beginning of my mental torture. I couldn’t talk to my family because already, I was the only one attending a different church and somehow my mom never liked the idea. As the days went by I tried to use drinking and smoking to cover up the deep shame and guilt I was battling with. But as soon as the high was over, the thoughts came back and I felt stuck like I couldn’t move forward.
I felt I had to talk to someone and I decided to speak to my then good friend, Ernest Akale but unfortunately for me, Mr. Ernest did not have the capacity to hold what I said to him. He broke down completely the days that followed and I found myself having to pause how I was feeling and what I was struggling with to help my friend be strong. After a while, he withdrew from not just me but his then fiancé and friends. I had to then tell the fiancé what had caused it (she suspected we were having an affair so I had to clear the air) To my surprise she was a lot stronger than her man and told me to suck it up (I’m paraphrasing). She said if she were me, she wouldn’t leave the church but stay to torment Pastor Biodun and collect money from him. Ok! That sounded extreme for me, as my intention was not to blackmail but to heal my broken self. Anyways, I finally found the courage to speak to my then unit head who said he was going to talk to Pastor Biodun but didn’t have the liver to do so. Before long, the story was spreading and naturally getting twisted.
I went to a new church and it seemed like the COZA bug had chased me there. The pastor would always refer to COZA as some example and each time that was done, it seemed like a spear was thrust through my chest. One day, I broke down in the service and started crying uncontrollably, as I couldn’t take another mention of COZA and the pictures it painted in my head.
Very long, boring story cut short, for the last 5 months I gave the whole church thing a big space and break. I wasn’t sure I believed in God. I wasn’t sure I understood what it meant when people said ‘Jesus saves” and I definitely wasn’t sure how to deal with the mental torture that was affecting not just me but my relationships with family and friends. I was very unstable, fearful and worst of all guilty. I got a chance to talk to Pastor Folarin of COZA Lagos Chapter, popularly called Pastor flo about everything. I made an effort to reach out to him because I realized the right thing to do was talk to an elder in the church and seek some sort of remedy to a wrong I believed had been done me. Instead, Pastor Flo said, Pastor Biodun had confessed to him and they had ‘talked’ about it and somehow that was supposed to be Ok.
He asked what it was I wanted coming to talk to him about it when I did, I told him I realized what happened between Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I was wrong and not just that I felt abused and manipulated. I also said I thought it was wrong for Pastor Biodun to go on preaching without taking time to deal with his personal character flaws. I said I thought he was danger to all the young women that attended the church. Come to think of it, maybe he meant if I wanted something monetary or material (as someone had suggested when I opened up to her) but the truth is, I never wanted his money (or is it the church member’s money.) All I wanted was to meet with him and have him accept that he misled me, betrayed his wife and the church he pastors. I wasn’t the only lady in COZA who had been a victim of his sexcapades and manipulative patterns but I was the one who could come back after months of struggle with not just my faith but also my affair with him. And I wanted to set things right. I wanted to talk to Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo maybe for closure and I felt like I needed an apology because he played the “touch not my anointed” card to keep me locked in guilt, shame and fear when all along it was a calculated plan and I dare say, it started when he asked me to join the workforce.
Not to mention the audacity to talk about teaching me a level of grace I didn’t understand. I had no intention of understanding a grace that would permit me to go on doing things that were wrong and what’s worse having to carry the burden for almost a year.
Different surprising advises came up in the weeks that followed the rumour making rounds. I was told to hush because Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo had been a cultist in the past and could send people to shut me up. All my so-called friends in COZA withdrew from me and treated me like I had the plague. What was worse was Pastor Flo finally saw my then pastor to ‘talk’ about what had happened with Pastor Biodun and lied that it happened once and was a mistake. My question then became, ‘do these people even care how broken I had become?’ ’do they care about the emotional and spiritual welfare of the people they were pastoring?’ The sad answer was NO. Most of us old members of COZA kept leaving but they couldn’t care less. What was important was to keep growing the church and having more and more cars with stickers that read “More than enough.” Back then, I always felt horrible when I saw another car drive past me with the sticker. I was breaking, I was struggling but no one could help. All they could do was ask me to hide so Pastor Biodun’s goons don’t hurt me. And then the interesting one was if I had evidence to prove my claim. Let me just say here that, it isn’t a claim, it’s a confession to free me from all of the guilt and shame I have had to live with for no reason at all. (That being said, I have evidence to prove all I have said here, the latest being a 58 minutes recording of my meeting with Pastor Flo a few months back)
This is my confession and I cannot begin to describe how much weight has been lifted off of my shoulders just pouring the truth out about what went down. So, to all my ex COZA friends gossiping about me, get your facts right. To those who said they’d help me deal with the pain but didn’t, I forgive you, I have learnt how to deal with it and I am doing just fine. To those who fear for my safety saying Pastor Biodun would send people to shut me up, I really have gone past fearing for my life. To live is gain and to die is Christ (or how does Paul say it again?) And to the only person who ever supported me through it all, thank you, I am learning to be brave. Please don’t think I am perfect in all of this but in line with living my authentic life and putting all forms of abuse behind me, this is where I press the stop button and stop the bleeding. This is where I break the silence and call the church to stand up for what it has been commissioned to do. If you will not enter the Kingdom, please don’t stop others who are trying to enter.
I still remember when I used to nurse the idea of digging up emails, text messages, hotel billings (as once I used my card to pay for his room when his master card failed to work) to prove there was an affair. It was pathetic. Why for the love of heaven was I trying to dig up evidence? I am satisfied setting the record straight. I am ready for any shaming or bashing that would follow because the truth is, because of what I have suffered and come through, I am really not moved by what people say or think about me anymore. I am a stronger woman and a damn abuse survivor seeking to connect with other victims of abuse to show them how to deal with the shame, hurt and guilt and how to come out stronger. Turning their mess into their message.
I am Ese Walter and I have gone through all forms of abuse from family, boyfriends, my ex pastor and some strangers not to break me, but so I stand and so I qualify to help victims. My scars have qualified me and when all is said and done, I will still be standing. I AM WOMAN, I BEND, I DON’T BREAK!
Cheers to the freaking weekend!!!
This article contains stories that most ‘church people’ don’t want to address. So, if you are one of those living in denial and covering up crap going on in the church, this is where you should stop reading. Thanks for stopping by.
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Now, for the rest of us, please sit down and switch on your open mind. I want to talk about something I have kept bottled up inside for longer than necessary. I have also decided to use real names, as my defense for any accusation of slander is justification. I tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but. However, feel free to throw your doubt around but know that I am past the shaming game (where victims of abuse are shot down by blame) I am no longer a victim but a survivor who is sharing her experience to help others caught in same web of abuse, guilt and shame. We only get to live once right? So here, it goes…
I recently came to know this event too was abuse (recently here means about 6 months ago). It has literally been eating me up having to drive by another billboard advertising preachers, or hearing his name, or even trying to ask about the validity of the entire salvation story and whether or not there is a God that truly watches over his people. That being said, I’m just going to say it as it is. This is a recap of my affair with Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo of COZA (Common Wealth Of Zion Assembly) Abuja chapter. This affair I have come to know as a form of abuse as you would see the different elements of abuse very present.
I met Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo many years ago. I was getting bored of the church I was attending and someone suggested COZA. At the time, I had never heard about it. My friend said, go there, I’m sure you would enjoy the word. But he also gave me a strong warning. He said he would advice that I remain a member only and not join the workforce. I agreed. The first time I attended COZA, I felt it was my church and decided I was going to plant my ass there. About eleven months had gone by and I was still attending the services quietly and faithfully. I really did like the church. One day a worker in the church approached me that the senior pastor wanted to see me.
Me? I thought. Why would the senior pastor want to see me? Not the second man but the head nigga in charge? Ok na! I started to think my sin was oozing so bad the pastor could tell I needed Jesus. (Poor old me.) I saw him at the end of the second service (they had two services at the time) and he said to me that he would like me to work with him. I knew I had no intentions of becoming a pastor so I had to ask in what capacity. He said he’d like for me to join a department, preferably the Pastoral Care Unit (PCU).
A few weeks later, against my friend’s advice not to join the workforce, I was a PCU member. All of a sudden, I had some status in church. I was ‘somebody.’ Dress had to be on point, hair, shoes and what not… As workers, we were literally trying to outshine each other or so it seemed. Anyways, I felt like I was a privileged member of an elite circle. Hehehe. (It did feel good though, for the most part.)
About a year after joining the workforce, I was on my way to London for a Masters degree program that would last two years. As was the rule for workers travelling, I wrote to say I would be away for 2 years and Pastor Biodun Fotoyinbo asked that I keep in touch by sending him my number and email when I had settled in London so he “makes sure I continue in the faith” because according to him, people loose their faith when they leave home and he wanted to make sure I didn’t. So, on that note, as soon as I got a phone line in London, I was sure to call ‘my pastor’ to say I arrived safe, had settled in and also gave my phone number.
We had spoken a few times especially when COZA started to stream online. I always watched and would give feedback on quality of production and share a little bit on the challenges I faced settling in a new land. One evening, Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo called me that he was coming to London and needed me to help him make some hotel bookings as the person who was meant to do it couldn’t get it done (this was rather strange as I had never been involved in his travel itinerary) Later that day, he said it had been sorted and my help would not be required but that he would like me to arrange a cab to pick him up from Heathrow. I was happy to help my pastor from Nigeria and even saw it as a privilege. (I would later come to learn that all of this was a calculated attempt to hatch a plan that I suspect was set in motion when I was asked to join the workforce.)
The cab guy was there to get him the next day and when he arrived, he called to ask why I didn’t accompany the cab to pick him up (again, this was strange but I stopped my mind from overanalyzing the situation as I knew I had no business with his visit to London) About two hours later, he called me and said he would like to see me. When I arrived his hotel, I called from the reception but he asked that I come upstairs. I got to the room and tried to stop my mind from thinking why I was going to his room. As he opened the door and invited me in, I had to speak to my heart to stop its palpitations. My better judgment asked me not to go into the room but the kind of reverence I had for Pasotr Biodun Fatoyinbo bordered on fear and I steeped into that room.
“Care for a drink?” Asked Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo.
“No sir,” I said.
“You don’t have to be shy Ese, even if it’s alcohol, feel free and order what you want.” I wasn’t sure I heard my pastor asking me to order alcohol. I imagined it was a test and ignored the voice inside that was saying, “I’d have henny and coke please.” He proceeded to ask how I had been coping in London and if I was a committed member of any church. He also said he thought there was something special about me and wanted to know that I had not strayed from my faith. I really thought he had heard I was doing something I shouldn’t while in London but tried my best to focus on the conversation instead of my straying thoughts. He kept telling me to relax and feel comfortable with talking to him. After a few minutes, he asked that we go to the roof of the hotel as his room was a pent suite and had a connecting door to the roof.
While there, he sat on a reclining chair and asked me to come sit on his laps. This was a bit awkward for me and I froze for a moment as I asked why. He said he had told me to feel free with him and loosen up. I found myself strolling to sit on his laps. At that moment, I felt like a little girl who was experiencing something her mind couldn’t fathom. He asked me to kiss him and all I could think about was seeing him preach on the pulpit back in COZA Abuja, Nigeria, which was my home church. He again said ‘feel free Ese.’ And asked again, that I kiss him.
A few hours later, let’s just say, we were rolling under the sheets. It felt as though my mind had paused. I am not saying I was jazzed, (although it’s possible I was in some trancelike state and didn’t know it but I just was so afraid that I couldn’t say or think otherwise.) That was the beginning of this affair. A sexual affair that went on for a little over a week, DAILY!
I can hear somebody’s mind thinking, ‘well, you weren’t raped.” And I remember a pastor I opened up to when I couldn’t take all the mind games asking if I seduced him. No, I didn’t seduce him and no, I wasn’t raped but I felt trapped in this affair. Come to think of it, how could I have seduced him when I wanted nothing from him? I mean, I was too busy minding my business in London trying to get through with my masters program and I was overly comfortable. And even if I wanted to seduce anyone, it wouldn’t be a married man, not to mention a married pastor.
What I couldn’t reconcile the whole time, was how the same person who preached against the very things we were doing (i.e drinking in pubs, fornicating, committing adultery) was the same person endorsing and encouraging it.
At some point, I got really confused about what Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I were doing that I had to ask how he handles it. I will never forget what he said to me. He said and I quote, “I will teach you a level of grace that you don’t understand.” My mind couldn’t fathom that somehow grace was enough covering for not just fornication on my path, adultery on his path and the many lies that was bound to follow what we were doing that was clearly abominable. I somehow dealt with the thoughts and fears that followed on my path. He had said to me that he wanted me to be his girlfriend and he would take me around the world and spoil me with money and things. Somehow, money had never been one of the things that motivated me (I am from a home where all my needs have been adequately met) In all my ‘badness’ through finding myself, I never did things I did for money but more of rebellion against rules and authority.
Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo also said to me that he had a dream where I exposed what was happening to the media. Said it was all over the place and that people were calling me the girl that caused chaos in COZA. He also said I should remember the bible said to “touch not God’s anointed.” I immediately started to rebuke the devil and said I could never do anything like that. I was almost swearing with my entire family as I thought really I had touched God’s anointed by submitting my body to be used. Little did I know at the time that all of these were ways to mess with my mind and even manipulate my thoughts.
Fast-forward a few months later, I was back in Nigeria and my church had become uncomfortable. Anytime I sat in church and listened to Pastor Biodun preach, I felt shame. I finally sent him a message saying I wasn’t comfortable anymore. I was confused and needed to talk about what had happened. He said I should meet him to talk and I did. It was a really weird meeting for me especially when he tried to kiss me at our meeting. I finally realized at this point that he couldn’t help me. I thought God was angry with me and I couldn’t pray so I decided to withdraw completely from COZA. This was the beginning of my mental torture. I couldn’t talk to my family because already, I was the only one attending a different church and somehow my mom never liked the idea. As the days went by I tried to use drinking and smoking to cover up the deep shame and guilt I was battling with. But as soon as the high was over, the thoughts came back and I felt stuck like I couldn’t move forward.
I felt I had to talk to someone and I decided to speak to my then good friend, Ernest Akale but unfortunately for me, Mr. Ernest did not have the capacity to hold what I said to him. He broke down completely the days that followed and I found myself having to pause how I was feeling and what I was struggling with to help my friend be strong. After a while, he withdrew from not just me but his then fiancé and friends. I had to then tell the fiancé what had caused it (she suspected we were having an affair so I had to clear the air) To my surprise she was a lot stronger than her man and told me to suck it up (I’m paraphrasing). She said if she were me, she wouldn’t leave the church but stay to torment Pastor Biodun and collect money from him. Ok! That sounded extreme for me, as my intention was not to blackmail but to heal my broken self. Anyways, I finally found the courage to speak to my then unit head who said he was going to talk to Pastor Biodun but didn’t have the liver to do so. Before long, the story was spreading and naturally getting twisted.
I went to a new church and it seemed like the COZA bug had chased me there. The pastor would always refer to COZA as some example and each time that was done, it seemed like a spear was thrust through my chest. One day, I broke down in the service and started crying uncontrollably, as I couldn’t take another mention of COZA and the pictures it painted in my head.
Very long, boring story cut short, for the last 5 months I gave the whole church thing a big space and break. I wasn’t sure I believed in God. I wasn’t sure I understood what it meant when people said ‘Jesus saves” and I definitely wasn’t sure how to deal with the mental torture that was affecting not just me but my relationships with family and friends. I was very unstable, fearful and worst of all guilty. I got a chance to talk to Pastor Folarin of COZA Lagos Chapter, popularly called Pastor flo about everything. I made an effort to reach out to him because I realized the right thing to do was talk to an elder in the church and seek some sort of remedy to a wrong I believed had been done me. Instead, Pastor Flo said, Pastor Biodun had confessed to him and they had ‘talked’ about it and somehow that was supposed to be Ok.
He asked what it was I wanted coming to talk to him about it when I did, I told him I realized what happened between Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo and I was wrong and not just that I felt abused and manipulated. I also said I thought it was wrong for Pastor Biodun to go on preaching without taking time to deal with his personal character flaws. I said I thought he was danger to all the young women that attended the church. Come to think of it, maybe he meant if I wanted something monetary or material (as someone had suggested when I opened up to her) but the truth is, I never wanted his money (or is it the church member’s money.) All I wanted was to meet with him and have him accept that he misled me, betrayed his wife and the church he pastors. I wasn’t the only lady in COZA who had been a victim of his sexcapades and manipulative patterns but I was the one who could come back after months of struggle with not just my faith but also my affair with him. And I wanted to set things right. I wanted to talk to Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo maybe for closure and I felt like I needed an apology because he played the “touch not my anointed” card to keep me locked in guilt, shame and fear when all along it was a calculated plan and I dare say, it started when he asked me to join the workforce.
Not to mention the audacity to talk about teaching me a level of grace I didn’t understand. I had no intention of understanding a grace that would permit me to go on doing things that were wrong and what’s worse having to carry the burden for almost a year.
Different surprising advises came up in the weeks that followed the rumour making rounds. I was told to hush because Pastor Biodun Fatoyinbo had been a cultist in the past and could send people to shut me up. All my so-called friends in COZA withdrew from me and treated me like I had the plague. What was worse was Pastor Flo finally saw my then pastor to ‘talk’ about what had happened with Pastor Biodun and lied that it happened once and was a mistake. My question then became, ‘do these people even care how broken I had become?’ ’do they care about the emotional and spiritual welfare of the people they were pastoring?’ The sad answer was NO. Most of us old members of COZA kept leaving but they couldn’t care less. What was important was to keep growing the church and having more and more cars with stickers that read “More than enough.” Back then, I always felt horrible when I saw another car drive past me with the sticker. I was breaking, I was struggling but no one could help. All they could do was ask me to hide so Pastor Biodun’s goons don’t hurt me. And then the interesting one was if I had evidence to prove my claim. Let me just say here that, it isn’t a claim, it’s a confession to free me from all of the guilt and shame I have had to live with for no reason at all. (That being said, I have evidence to prove all I have said here, the latest being a 58 minutes recording of my meeting with Pastor Flo a few months back)
This is my confession and I cannot begin to describe how much weight has been lifted off of my shoulders just pouring the truth out about what went down. So, to all my ex COZA friends gossiping about me, get your facts right. To those who said they’d help me deal with the pain but didn’t, I forgive you, I have learnt how to deal with it and I am doing just fine. To those who fear for my safety saying Pastor Biodun would send people to shut me up, I really have gone past fearing for my life. To live is gain and to die is Christ (or how does Paul say it again?) And to the only person who ever supported me through it all, thank you, I am learning to be brave. Please don’t think I am perfect in all of this but in line with living my authentic life and putting all forms of abuse behind me, this is where I press the stop button and stop the bleeding. This is where I break the silence and call the church to stand up for what it has been commissioned to do. If you will not enter the Kingdom, please don’t stop others who are trying to enter.
I still remember when I used to nurse the idea of digging up emails, text messages, hotel billings (as once I used my card to pay for his room when his master card failed to work) to prove there was an affair. It was pathetic. Why for the love of heaven was I trying to dig up evidence? I am satisfied setting the record straight. I am ready for any shaming or bashing that would follow because the truth is, because of what I have suffered and come through, I am really not moved by what people say or think about me anymore. I am a stronger woman and a damn abuse survivor seeking to connect with other victims of abuse to show them how to deal with the shame, hurt and guilt and how to come out stronger. Turning their mess into their message.
I am Ese Walter and I have gone through all forms of abuse from family, boyfriends, my ex pastor and some strangers not to break me, but so I stand and so I qualify to help victims. My scars have qualified me and when all is said and done, I will still be standing. I AM WOMAN, I BEND, I DON’T BREAK!
Cheers to the freaking weekend!!!
Man Turns His Facial Features To Dog Face Through Plastic Surgery – (Warning!! Graphical Pictures)
Friday, June 21, 2013
Now, i really dont know what goes through some people's mind these days. A man from Brazil asked his Surgeon to make him the first DOGMAN in history. And yes, he has made a point *you are the first dogman*so what next????
here are more pictures
here are more pictures
NIGERIANS ARE NOT TERRORISTS!!!
Thursday, May 23, 2013
THIS IS A CRY FOR NIGERIA AND WE MUST ALL STAND TO PROTECT OUR COUNTRY!
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
WE ARE NOT TERRORISTS AND WILL NEVER TAKE THE BLAME FOR ANOTHER SENSELESS ACT!!!
Nigerians all over the world should speak out and condemn the beheading of a citizen yesterday in UK. The beheading was done by a British citizen and not a Nigerian as speculated, his name does not confirm his nationality. This lunatic was born in the United Kingdom, never been to Nigeria, issued a birth certificate in the UK and held a British passport. Suddenly he is now a Nigerian?......
This man is not a Nigerian-British born Michael 'Mujahid' Adeboloja with an accomplice yesterday beheaded a British Soldier on a street in Woolwich, London.
Because he is not Gabriel Agbonlahor playing for Aston Villa and Three Lions, or Andrew Osagie, UK's reigning 800m champion, or Lawrence Okoye, British Discus Record Holder (68.24m), or Abiodun oyepitan, British Olympic Silver and Gold Medalist, or Christine Ohuruogu, Beijing Olympic British Gold Medalist, or Eniola Aluko, British Olympic Female Football star, or Temi Fagbenle British Olympic Basketball queen, or several other thousands of British citizens with Nigerian connection who are making the country proud, it is being made to look like Nigeria has "shown itself again" in the action of that British boy who beheaded a soldier. yesterday. Nigeria should just be left out of this. Pls pass on to educate the ignorant ones.
I am a proud Nigerian and no nigerian-british boy who has never step foot in our land be tagged alongside us. We have alot already on our hands to be worried anout and so we refuse to be tagged with a rebel; trained and bred in a WHITE-MAN'S country!
by all Nigerians from all Nigerians.
LONG LIFE THE FEDERAL REPUBLIC OF NIGERIA!!!!!
TOGETHER WE STAND!!!
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!
WE ARE NOT TERRORISTS AND WILL NEVER TAKE THE BLAME FOR ANOTHER SENSELESS ACT!!!
Nigerians all over the world should speak out and condemn the beheading of a citizen yesterday in UK. The beheading was done by a British citizen and not a Nigerian as speculated, his name does not confirm his nationality. This lunatic was born in the United Kingdom, never been to Nigeria, issued a birth certificate in the UK and held a British passport. Suddenly he is now a Nigerian?......
This man is not a Nigerian-British born Michael 'Mujahid' Adeboloja with an accomplice yesterday beheaded a British Soldier on a street in Woolwich, London.
Because he is not Gabriel Agbonlahor playing for Aston Villa and Three Lions, or Andrew Osagie, UK's reigning 800m champion, or Lawrence Okoye, British Discus Record Holder (68.24m), or Abiodun oyepitan, British Olympic Silver and Gold Medalist, or Christine Ohuruogu, Beijing Olympic British Gold Medalist, or Eniola Aluko, British Olympic Female Football star, or Temi Fagbenle British Olympic Basketball queen, or several other thousands of British citizens with Nigerian connection who are making the country proud, it is being made to look like Nigeria has "shown itself again" in the action of that British boy who beheaded a soldier. yesterday. Nigeria should just be left out of this. Pls pass on to educate the ignorant ones.
I am a proud Nigerian and no nigerian-british boy who has never step foot in our land be tagged alongside us. We have alot already on our hands to be worried anout and so we refuse to be tagged with a rebel; trained and bred in a WHITE-MAN'S country!
by all Nigerians from all Nigerians.
LONG LIFE THE FEDERAL REPUBLIC OF NIGERIA!!!!!
TOGETHER WE STAND!!!
(WATCH VIDEO) Runz Girl Of The Week: Lolita Takes On Afrocandy
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Okay, there is bound to be trouble when Afrocandy sees this. hahahhahahha
I just found out this week Nigerian YouTube sensation, Naija runs girl, Lolita, you remember her right???
she is here again, shining the spotlight on Nollywood screen diva Afrocandy who made blog lines last week following the release of her latest sexual explicit movie titled “Destructive Instinct,... ofcourse, it was too x-rated to be called a Nigerian movie because its never in our culture to boldly come out and act PORNOGRAPHY...
Afrocandy whose real name is Judith Opara Mazagwu is a US based actress, singer, writer, model and mother was featured on lots of blogs..
I just didnt see the need to talk about her but this youtube video got my attention so here we go!
but before that, lets just remind ourselves about what she posted on her facebook wall about her movie.
In my Micheal Jackson Voice- "THIS IS IT"
I just found out this week Nigerian YouTube sensation, Naija runs girl, Lolita, you remember her right???
she is here again, shining the spotlight on Nollywood screen diva Afrocandy who made blog lines last week following the release of her latest sexual explicit movie titled “Destructive Instinct,... ofcourse, it was too x-rated to be called a Nigerian movie because its never in our culture to boldly come out and act PORNOGRAPHY...
Afrocandy whose real name is Judith Opara Mazagwu is a US based actress, singer, writer, model and mother was featured on lots of blogs..
I just didnt see the need to talk about her but this youtube video got my attention so here we go!
but before that, lets just remind ourselves about what she posted on her facebook wall about her movie.
In my Micheal Jackson Voice- "THIS IS IT"
A PASTOR SAYS THAT MASTURBATION CAN BE A FORM OF GAY SEX!
Mark Driscoll, Pastor of Mars Hill Church in Seattle says and i quote that "Masturbation can be a form of homosexuality because it is a sexual act that does not involve a woman. If a man were to masturbate while engaged in other forms of sexual intimacy with his wife then he would not be doing so in a homosexual way. However, any man who does so without his wife in the room is bordering on homosexuality activity, particularly if he’s watching himself in a mirror and being turned on by his own male body.”
Do you agree to this???
Derenle Finally Runs Amok On Channel O
I just love this guy's swag and personality. He is just a sweet person when you come in contact with him. free spirited and doesn't basically care about what people say or think about him. He is good at what he does and it pays his bills, leaving critics to do what they know best to do which is criticize!
He is one controversial personality that tends to bring spice to fans all over the world, coming up with creative, out of the world ideas which most people will shy away from.
And to the best of my knowledge, for you to remain relevant in the entertainment industry, you would have to do something that other people shy away from and get your result though most times, the results can be amazingly destructive when limits are not set as to how far you go in being controversial but i will give it to Denrele for his sense of creativity!
Now here are some futuristic appearance of Denrele on the channel O in South Africa!
He is one controversial personality that tends to bring spice to fans all over the world, coming up with creative, out of the world ideas which most people will shy away from.
And to the best of my knowledge, for you to remain relevant in the entertainment industry, you would have to do something that other people shy away from and get your result though most times, the results can be amazingly destructive when limits are not set as to how far you go in being controversial but i will give it to Denrele for his sense of creativity!
Now here are some futuristic appearance of Denrele on the channel O in South Africa!
President Goodluck Jonathan's Declaration On The State Of Emergency.
Dear compatriots,
1. It has become necessary for me to address you on the recent spate of terrorist activities and protracted security challenges in some parts of the country, particularly in Borno, Yobe, Adamawa, Gombe, Bauchi, Kano, Plateau and most recently Bayelsa, Taraba, Benue and Nasarawa states. These unfortunate events have led to needless loss of lives and property of many innocent Nigerians including members of our security forces.
2. The recent killing of security operatives by a cult group in Nasarawa state is particularly condemnable. I have directed that no effort or expense be spared in identifying and bringing to justice all those who had a hand in the killing of the operatives.
3. The activities of insurgents and terrorists have been reprehensible, causing fear among our citizens and a near-breakdown of law and order in parts of the country, especially the North. We have taken robust steps to unravel and address the root causes of these crises, but it would appear that there is a systematic effort by insurgents and terrorists to destabilize the Nigerian state and test our collective resolve.
4. Since I returned to the country after cutting short my visit to South Africa and aborting a planned state visit to Namibia, I have received detailed briefings from our security agencies. These briefings indicate that what we are facing is not just militancy or criminality, but a rebellion and insurgency by terrorist groups which pose a very serious threat to national unity and territorial integrity. Already, some northern parts of Borno state have been taken over by groups whose allegiance is to different flags and ideologies.
5. These terrorists and insurgents seem determined to establish control and authority over parts of our beloved nation and to progressively overwhelm the rest of the country. In many places, they have destroyed the Nigerian flag and other symbols of state authority and in their place, hoisted strange flags suggesting the exercise of alternative sovereignty.
6. They have attacked government buildings and facilities. They have murdered innocent citizens and state officials. They have set houses ablaze, and taken women and children as hostages. These actions amount to a declaration of war and a deliberate attempt to undermine the authority of the Nigerian state and threaten her territorial integrity. As a responsible government, we will not tolerate this.
7. Previously, we adopted a multi-track approach to the resolution of this problem through actions which included persuasion, dialogue and widespread consultation with the political, religious and community leaders in the affected states.
8. We exercised restraint to allow for all efforts by both State Governors and well-meaning Nigerians to stop the repeated cases of mindless violence.
9. Yet, the insurgents and terrorists seek to prevent government from fulfilling its constitutional obligations to the people as they pursue their fanatical agenda of mayhem, mass murder, division and separatism.
10. While the efforts at persuasion and dialogue will continue, let me reiterate that we have a sacred duty to ensure the security and well-being of all our people and protect the sovereign integrity of our country. Therefore, we shall, on no account, shy away from doing whatever becomes necessary to provide the fullest possible security for the citizens of this country in any part of the country they choose to reside.
11. We have a duty to stand firm against those who threaten the sovereign integrity of the Nigerian state. Our will is strong, because our faith lies in the indivisibility of Nigeria.
12. Following recent developments in the affected states, it has become necessary for Government to take extraordinary measures to restore normalcy. After wide consultations, and in exercise of the powers conferred on me by the provisions of Section 305, sub-section 1 of the Constitution of the Federal Republic of Nigeria 1999 as amended, I hereby declare a State of Emergency in Borno, Yobe and Adamawa states.
13. Accordingly, the Chief of Defence Staff has been directed to immediately deploy more troops to these states for more effective internal security operations. The troops and other security agencies involved in these operations have orders to take all necessary action, within the ambit of their rules of engagement, to put an end to the impunity of insurgents and terrorists.
14. This will include the authority to arrest and detain suspects, the taking of possession and control of any building or structure used for terrorist purposes, the lock-down of any area of terrorist operation, the conduct of searches, and the apprehension of persons in illegal possession of weapons.
15. The details of this Proclamation will be transmitted to the National Assembly in accordance with the provisions of the Constitution. But in the meantime, let me make it clear that within the purview of this Proclamation, the Governors and other political office holders in the affected states will continue to discharge their constitutional responsibilities.
16. I urge the political leadership in Borno, Yobe and Adamawa states to co-operate maximally with the Armed Forces and the Police to ensure that the exercise succeeds. We call on the citizenry to co-operate with our security agencies to ensure a return to normalcy within the shortest possible time.
17. I am again approaching our neighbouring countries, through diplomatic channels, as done in the recent past, for their co-operation in apprehending any terrorist elements that may escape across the border.
18. Nigerians are peace-loving people; these sad events perpetrated by those who do not wish our nation well have not changed the essential character of our people.
19. I want to reassure you all that those who are directly or indirectly encouraging any form of rebellion against the Nigerian state, and their collaborators; those insurgents and terrorists who take delight in killing our security operatives, whoever they may be, wherever they may go, we will hunt them down, we will fish them out, and we will bring them to justice. No matter what it takes, we will win this war against terror.
20. I am convinced that with your support and prayers, we shall overcome these challenges and together, we will restore every part of our country to the path of peace, growth and development.
Long live the Federal Republic of Nigeria.
well personally, i think he should have done this a long time ago...haba! na now day dey break???
1. It has become necessary for me to address you on the recent spate of terrorist activities and protracted security challenges in some parts of the country, particularly in Borno, Yobe, Adamawa, Gombe, Bauchi, Kano, Plateau and most recently Bayelsa, Taraba, Benue and Nasarawa states. These unfortunate events have led to needless loss of lives and property of many innocent Nigerians including members of our security forces.
2. The recent killing of security operatives by a cult group in Nasarawa state is particularly condemnable. I have directed that no effort or expense be spared in identifying and bringing to justice all those who had a hand in the killing of the operatives.
3. The activities of insurgents and terrorists have been reprehensible, causing fear among our citizens and a near-breakdown of law and order in parts of the country, especially the North. We have taken robust steps to unravel and address the root causes of these crises, but it would appear that there is a systematic effort by insurgents and terrorists to destabilize the Nigerian state and test our collective resolve.
4. Since I returned to the country after cutting short my visit to South Africa and aborting a planned state visit to Namibia, I have received detailed briefings from our security agencies. These briefings indicate that what we are facing is not just militancy or criminality, but a rebellion and insurgency by terrorist groups which pose a very serious threat to national unity and territorial integrity. Already, some northern parts of Borno state have been taken over by groups whose allegiance is to different flags and ideologies.
5. These terrorists and insurgents seem determined to establish control and authority over parts of our beloved nation and to progressively overwhelm the rest of the country. In many places, they have destroyed the Nigerian flag and other symbols of state authority and in their place, hoisted strange flags suggesting the exercise of alternative sovereignty.
6. They have attacked government buildings and facilities. They have murdered innocent citizens and state officials. They have set houses ablaze, and taken women and children as hostages. These actions amount to a declaration of war and a deliberate attempt to undermine the authority of the Nigerian state and threaten her territorial integrity. As a responsible government, we will not tolerate this.
7. Previously, we adopted a multi-track approach to the resolution of this problem through actions which included persuasion, dialogue and widespread consultation with the political, religious and community leaders in the affected states.
8. We exercised restraint to allow for all efforts by both State Governors and well-meaning Nigerians to stop the repeated cases of mindless violence.
9. Yet, the insurgents and terrorists seek to prevent government from fulfilling its constitutional obligations to the people as they pursue their fanatical agenda of mayhem, mass murder, division and separatism.
10. While the efforts at persuasion and dialogue will continue, let me reiterate that we have a sacred duty to ensure the security and well-being of all our people and protect the sovereign integrity of our country. Therefore, we shall, on no account, shy away from doing whatever becomes necessary to provide the fullest possible security for the citizens of this country in any part of the country they choose to reside.
11. We have a duty to stand firm against those who threaten the sovereign integrity of the Nigerian state. Our will is strong, because our faith lies in the indivisibility of Nigeria.
12. Following recent developments in the affected states, it has become necessary for Government to take extraordinary measures to restore normalcy. After wide consultations, and in exercise of the powers conferred on me by the provisions of Section 305, sub-section 1 of the Constitution of the Federal Republic of Nigeria 1999 as amended, I hereby declare a State of Emergency in Borno, Yobe and Adamawa states.
13. Accordingly, the Chief of Defence Staff has been directed to immediately deploy more troops to these states for more effective internal security operations. The troops and other security agencies involved in these operations have orders to take all necessary action, within the ambit of their rules of engagement, to put an end to the impunity of insurgents and terrorists.
14. This will include the authority to arrest and detain suspects, the taking of possession and control of any building or structure used for terrorist purposes, the lock-down of any area of terrorist operation, the conduct of searches, and the apprehension of persons in illegal possession of weapons.
15. The details of this Proclamation will be transmitted to the National Assembly in accordance with the provisions of the Constitution. But in the meantime, let me make it clear that within the purview of this Proclamation, the Governors and other political office holders in the affected states will continue to discharge their constitutional responsibilities.
16. I urge the political leadership in Borno, Yobe and Adamawa states to co-operate maximally with the Armed Forces and the Police to ensure that the exercise succeeds. We call on the citizenry to co-operate with our security agencies to ensure a return to normalcy within the shortest possible time.
17. I am again approaching our neighbouring countries, through diplomatic channels, as done in the recent past, for their co-operation in apprehending any terrorist elements that may escape across the border.
18. Nigerians are peace-loving people; these sad events perpetrated by those who do not wish our nation well have not changed the essential character of our people.
19. I want to reassure you all that those who are directly or indirectly encouraging any form of rebellion against the Nigerian state, and their collaborators; those insurgents and terrorists who take delight in killing our security operatives, whoever they may be, wherever they may go, we will hunt them down, we will fish them out, and we will bring them to justice. No matter what it takes, we will win this war against terror.
20. I am convinced that with your support and prayers, we shall overcome these challenges and together, we will restore every part of our country to the path of peace, growth and development.
Long live the Federal Republic of Nigeria.
well personally, i think he should have done this a long time ago...haba! na now day dey break???
Femi Fani Kayode's Reaction To President's State Of Emergency.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
This is what FEMI FANI KAYODE HAD TO SAY ABOUT PRESIDENT'S STATE OF EMERGENCY
''I am impressed and encouraged by the tough talk that our President indulged in tonight but I have never heard of a State of Emergency where the governors and other political office holders in the affected states are given the opportunity to "remain in office". This has never happened before in the history of Nigeria.
As far as I am concerned President Jonathan's declaration of a State of Emergency in Borno, Yobe and Adamawa states is too little and too late. The governor's and ALL political office holders in the affected states should have been completely removed and the whole state should have been run by a Federal Government appointed civilian Administrator who would then have the full backing of the military.
That is what is meant to happen when a State of Emergency is declared. Sadly Jonathan did not have the guts to go all the way and to remove the governors and this half-measure that he has put in place will not have the desired effect. This is another lost opportunity. What a pity."
And Just minutes after President Jonathan declared a State of Emergency in Borno State and two other states, the Secretary of the Christian Association of Nigeria (CAN) in the state, Reverend Faye Pama Musa was killed by suspected Boko Haram members. This happened around 7.30pm on the 15th of march.
Reverend Pama Musa, who was the head pastor of a pentecostal church in Maiduguri, was shot dead inside his GRA home by two gunmen who trailed him to his residence. The head quarters of Borno CAN have confirmed his killing. WHAT IS YOUR REACTION TO THIS!!!
''I am impressed and encouraged by the tough talk that our President indulged in tonight but I have never heard of a State of Emergency where the governors and other political office holders in the affected states are given the opportunity to "remain in office". This has never happened before in the history of Nigeria.
As far as I am concerned President Jonathan's declaration of a State of Emergency in Borno, Yobe and Adamawa states is too little and too late. The governor's and ALL political office holders in the affected states should have been completely removed and the whole state should have been run by a Federal Government appointed civilian Administrator who would then have the full backing of the military.
That is what is meant to happen when a State of Emergency is declared. Sadly Jonathan did not have the guts to go all the way and to remove the governors and this half-measure that he has put in place will not have the desired effect. This is another lost opportunity. What a pity."
And Just minutes after President Jonathan declared a State of Emergency in Borno State and two other states, the Secretary of the Christian Association of Nigeria (CAN) in the state, Reverend Faye Pama Musa was killed by suspected Boko Haram members. This happened around 7.30pm on the 15th of march.
Reverend Pama Musa, who was the head pastor of a pentecostal church in Maiduguri, was shot dead inside his GRA home by two gunmen who trailed him to his residence. The head quarters of Borno CAN have confirmed his killing. WHAT IS YOUR REACTION TO THIS!!!
Beyonce Confesses: "I would not be the woman I am if I did not go home to that man."
Here is Mrs Carter talking about how she would not be the woman she is today if not for her husband...
hmmmm here we go again with the power couple!!!
Beyonce appears on "Oprah's Next Chapter" this weekend, and she has opened up about her daughter, her passion for performing, and the love of her life - husband Jay Z
Three months after she gave birth to Blue Ivy the pop star did a concert, calling the decision "really crazy."
"I clearly had never given birth and didn't know that I would gain 60 pounds," she told Oprah. "Is that what you gained?" the talk show host pressed. "Fifty-seven pounds," Beyonce clarified.
The singer added, "I feel so fortunate to do my job. I love my job. I love singing. I love the way it feels."
Beyonce balances being a fierce independent woman with someone who also adores and loves her man, Oprah points out in the interview.
"I would not be the woman I am if I did not go home to that man," Beyonce agrees. "It just gives me such a foundation."
Beyonce says Jay-Z has helped her "on so many levels." The twosome were friends for over a year before they started dating. "That foundation is so important in a relationship," Beyonce says.
hmmmm here we go again with the power couple!!!
Beyonce appears on "Oprah's Next Chapter" this weekend, and she has opened up about her daughter, her passion for performing, and the love of her life - husband Jay Z
Three months after she gave birth to Blue Ivy the pop star did a concert, calling the decision "really crazy."
"I clearly had never given birth and didn't know that I would gain 60 pounds," she told Oprah. "Is that what you gained?" the talk show host pressed. "Fifty-seven pounds," Beyonce clarified.
The singer added, "I feel so fortunate to do my job. I love my job. I love singing. I love the way it feels."
Beyonce balances being a fierce independent woman with someone who also adores and loves her man, Oprah points out in the interview.
"I would not be the woman I am if I did not go home to that man," Beyonce agrees. "It just gives me such a foundation."
Beyonce says Jay-Z has helped her "on so many levels." The twosome were friends for over a year before they started dating. "That foundation is so important in a relationship," Beyonce says.
Micheal Jackson's Heart Was Visible From His Skin
According to starpulse.com,
Michael Jackson was reportedly so pale-skinned and emaciated in the days before his death that his beating heart was visible through his skin, according to a testimony heard in court last week.
During the trial for the wrongful death suit Jackson's mother Katherine brought against concert promoter AEG Live, Michael's long-time makeup artist Karen "Turkle" Faye made the revelation when took the stand to testify on behalf of the plaintiff.
Faye said she was backstage at the Staples Center in Los Angeles, where Jackson was rehearsing for his residency at London's O2 Arena, when the star's costume designer Michael Blush told her he had seen the star withoug his shirt.
"He said, 'Oh my God, Turkle, I could see Michael's heart beat through the skin in his chest,'" Faye said. "It was like, 'Oh my God!' He was pretty much in shock."
Faye, 60, helped ready Jackson's body for his casket after his death, and she said that she was approached and asked to "help retouch" footage of the singer for his concert documentary, "This Is It," which was released posthumously.
The makeup artist said she declined to work on the project because it was obviously to help cover up any evidence of Jackson's failing health.
"It was a lie," she says. "I didn't want a lie. Everybody was lying after he died, [saying] that Michael was well. Everybody knew that he wasn't. I felt retouching Michael was just a part of that lie."
Jackson's choreographer, Alif Sankey, also testified last week, saying that she had concerns about the singer's health in the weeks before he died. Sankey said he looked unprepared for his 50-concert run at the O2.
Sankey says she sent her assessment of Michael's health to AEG tour director Kenny Ortega, who ignored her concerns.
Jackson's mother is suing the concert promoters for $40 Billion for the wrongful death of her son.
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