I know this is a little long but I can't leave any of it out and
am desperate for help. Please read it.
I feel an incredible amount of pain and fear right now and I'm
not asking you to go easy on me; I just know how hurtful my actions are already
and need to get a little guidance and perhaps be able to talk to someone who is
like me... (although I really wouldn't wish that on anyone) versus being told
what a horrible person I am. Other forums have produced nothing but people who
want to just stop by and tell me I'm $#%^. I don't see the point.
