I felt my inside twist in pain. Getting the
news of my sister dying from cancer made me acutely aware of how much I have
missed my family and how so desperately I wanted them to be perfectly okay even
if it means doing odd jobs to make that happen. She was just twenty seven years
old and has so much life to be wasted by that disease.
Looking straight into Saul’s eyes, I knew I
couldn’t afford to bring a child into this selfish circumstance.
‘I can assure you I would not for a moment
think of bringing a child into such n arrangement as this’. I spat at him,
turning away from Saul I put the envelope to one side.
I heard him move behind me and froze
instantly. I silently prayed for him not to touch me in case I betray my
composure. The skin along my bare arms crawled in anticipation of his warm,
gliding hands. How many times had he embraced me from behind in the past?
His hands would move slowly from my hips to my
breast, cupping it, his mouth nuzzling on the sensitive skin of my neck until I
would turn in his arms and offer myself to him.
My mind exploded with images of us together.
The passion he had ignited in me was something I had never experienced before
even though I had not been a virgin when we had met.
