I think i am surrounded by so much negative energy around and i need to get those who bring that negativity into my life off my back because its nothing ut depressing and sapping.
I am dazed at how people you thought were friends with you would go the extra mile to sabotage you. Its incredible!! The truth is i had a premonition last month in a dream that something crippling would happen to me but i didnt know it would come in this form or direction.
I thank God who said he will make known the deep things done in the secret to his children, so i already have my shock absorber ready but truly its mentally depressing that NOONE is to be trusted IN LIFE.
Now, i feel it coming close to home.
Guys, take out time to be spiritually close to God cus he alone can give a hint about the future and deep things that no man can reveal to you nor your eyes can see.
I am a true witness because i have been gifted with foresight thats is still under-used, i was warned but i choosed to nonchalantly pray about it and left it there. Maybe it would have been worse, if i hadnt said a prayer that early morning in january. Now i see the ripple effect in february.
You think you have someone that you can trust as a friend???
Don’t be shocked that those same friends will be the ones to sink the dagger inside you from the back to the point that you would never fathom why life sometimes can be so cruel and ironic. I have been stabbed by people i thought were my friends, my colleagues at work, even way back at home by some family members. I have been let down by too many people that now, I am trying hard to resist the urge to retreat and built a defensive wall around me, waiting patiently for the kill.
I talk to people that i feel would understand my plight but wow they are the ones who don’t seem to understand what i say. We find out that alot of people aren’t patient enough to listen to the next person. People listen to respond and not to understand plus when you take your time to listen and understand, they tell you that you take time to understand. Its hard living and running with a bunch of rats in the rat race so much that i want out.
This is the only place i can pour out my pain and i know i won’t be judged because i am the only one here, this is my place of solace, this is my hiding place, this is my fucking world and no one is permitted to come in unless i say otherwise.
I determine what i say to b*tchass-pretenders, snitches and backstabbers around me and what you have to say here; do not f*cking count. **bitchy mood activated***
_From an angry B*tch.
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